and sometimes it's like during this time at around 4.35am...

and things get really screwed up on my mind. i keep on thinking why have i gotten myself into such a situation. why?!?!?!??!

the situation is just like a stone in a canal... if the stone keeps on rolling on and on, it will definitely gather no moss.... likewise, i keep on thinking and keep on trying...no point.... in the end there's still most probably never gonna be thru....and perhaps i am just praying for that 0.0000001 percent of possibility?