I AM SO DISAPPOINTED.

today i wonder. how come i am not able to convince people. yes, now i finally believe that people often inform other people of certain things and i am kept in the dark and i am not aware of. why? can't you people just come straight to me and spell everything straight to my face and seek calrifications? why do you have to go through so many chains of commands? this isn't the SAF.

just ask me, why is that thing there? and i will say. the stuff might be there but i may not be doing it? it just happened to be there, safekeeping for a friend. so ya, i just know where certain relationships stand. what i cannot understand is why people cannot ask me questions straight direct to me but have to beat about the bush. tell me and i will explain, and whether you guys believe it or not it's all your decisions because i know i have done my best.

now that i think back when i received that phone call, no wonder i felt so funny. i really had no idea what was it about.

I AM SO DISAPPOINTED.