given up on ALL

I've given up on everything. seriously everything. I have lost all of my hope and all of my dreams. You caused it to me. I am seriously saddened and have been all these while after what was revealed to me.

Dreams are dreams and will still be dreams. The wait has to be long and it will be. That's why things do take place. Why am I such a fool as I've always been.

Love is just a complicated thing. I seriously want to put a full-stop to it but I just cannot.

Life's been miserable. NS sucks, life sucks, relationship sucks and everything else too. Even the "family" does not detest the wrongdoings but indirectly claims its righteousness. How can that and all these be happening?

I've been made a fool. You and all of you have been a great disappointment. And as the clock continues to tick, I can never know what the slash will make my blood splash and I just end my life and leave this town, this world. I don't care anymore because all have been lying and putting on a MASK.

I don't know what else you've been keeping from me but I believe there still are. It's just impossible that there's nothing else. Well, that's all for now. Written are thoughts, feelings and angst since the very day.