of shock...

yeah to you whoever it is, first and foremost, I just feel that whatever you have been doing is such a loser-attitude. whatever drawings about a dog, a dog with a cigarette, and a dog who is a bastard. whoever you are, whatever you do, i just feel that you're such a boy... you behave like one. you act like one. so childish. i cannot stand it. oh come on, my dear friend, how old are you? a primary school kid or what? i seriously wonder your maturity level.

o yes, Julie, i would like to say a very very big thank you to you. You've been such a great friend. And after that phone call from you, seriously, after hearing what you told me and what you know, i am seriously very disturbed by certain facts and at the same time, disappointed at such childish behaviour of him, or whoever, "you". right.... whoever you are.

and it came upon my head that i really can't believe that he, that guy, can behave weridly this way. Ranger, or rather lone ranger, i can't help but say that. and yeah... sometimes i wonder why i should be helping people out when in the end people do all those crap to me. politically unsafe or are they politically unsure. yeah, perhaps what she meant was totally right, so sweet of him to do that, yeah. i just can't help but agree because for a matter of fact, i can't do it. or maybe i am not a person fit enough to do it. and ya, i just came back from JJ's shoot and i cannot get to sleep after the chat with Julie, ya...this time seriously can't get to sleep. I met with someone in the school's management just some days ago, and i can confidently say that this guy did it. did what? guess... ya... he gave me away to this someone from the school's management. and you know what? i am sure it's you. hear me my friend (or foe from now), i think what you did is childish. and right... i am unsure if i should say this. well, i see couples all around. just remember, especially to all peeps out there, if you are attached, do not, i repeat, do not try to woo the attached because it really breaks people's heart. i just cannot ta-han.

i've been thinking of so many issues, since the 1st to the 2nd to the 3rd to the last... should i be the one giving up? should i be the one letting go? what if the other does not do anything about this situation (the guy who gave me away). how? i'm confused, depressed, disturbed, maybe want to punch him (but i guess not...why punch? let's not waste my time to such a loner)

and i pray that when Julie speaks to her, she will understand. really...hopefully.

the thing i guess is that i have to "Close One Eye"
should i or should i not?


Francis,
In a v v bad mood