I thank Him

A good bad day

2008-10-15T21:15:00.002+08:00

Ironical Title for this entry.

yes, had a long off just before i'm to embark on a journey to Medan, Indonesia for a short 10-day. A relief in disguise i guess...

Am still worried, unassured and insecure, but i guess things will still go on, i suppose.

Relationship has start to be dreadful for me.

I too, suppose that it's seriously pointless to rattle on and on with the other party. It's seriously pointless. It just adds to my disappointment each and everytime. And, I ponder why is it always my fault.

Signing off with heartfelt pains.

Riverside Restaurant

2008-08-25T02:36:00.002+08:00

Coming Tuesday going IPPT. don't know how well I'll fare. yeah, that's right, life as a HQ spec is just not that physically intensive.

Went to Riverside point indonesia restaurant. Food was great. i mean seriouly great. But weather's horrible. Was a cock-up making our (Jinghan and I) way to the place. This sua-ku me didn't know where on earth riverside point was (neither does han). Met her at Central Shopping Centre (near Eu Tong Sen Street) and it was still pouring like mad. Then we took a cab there which was like a stone's throw away. Anyway, the food really power and should try to eat there again. Thanks Dajie and jiefu for the treat. Xuan Xuan was smiling the whole evening in spite of the cold weather. So cute... If only God can bless me with a daughter like her in the future.

given up on ALL

2008-08-24T17:21:00.002+08:00

I've given up on everything. seriously everything. I have lost all of my hope and all of my dreams. You caused it to me. I am seriously saddened and have been all these while after what was revealed to me.

Dreams are dreams and will still be dreams. The wait has to be long and it will be. That's why things do take place. Why am I such a fool as I've always been.

Love is just a complicated thing. I seriously want to put a full-stop to it but I just cannot.

Life's been miserable. NS sucks, life sucks, relationship sucks and everything else too. Even the "family" does not detest the wrongdoings but indirectly claims its righteousness. How can that and all these be happening?

I've been made a fool. You and all of you have been a great disappointment. And as the clock continues to tick, I can never know what the slash will make my blood splash and I just end my life and leave this town, this world. I don't care anymore because all have been lying and putting on a MASK.

I don't know what else you've been keeping from me but I believe there still are. It's just impossible that there's nothing else. Well, that's all for now. Written are thoughts, feelings and angst since the very day.

Boots On The Ground - More on Urban Ops

2007-11-26T16:37:00.000+08:00

Call To Duty - Boots on The Ground

2007-11-26T16:28:00.000+08:00

i am wowed by this. Watch it.

Coming Home Soon

2007-09-21T18:10:00.000+08:00

Coming Home Soon
By Latch Key Kid

Where have all the young men gone?
They're leaving town, one by one
Johnny, come and get your gun
Father give your only son

Fearlessly they lay down their lives
Son, don't be afraid to die
You're fighting for the land that you love
Fighting for your God up above

When the bullets fall around you like rain
And the starry night has burst into flames
Remember you're the few, you're the brave
Remember what you're fighting to save

I know you'll be coming home soon
The war is over, it was on the evening news
Nobody's winning when it's life we have to lose
I know you'll be coming home soon, coming home soon

Victory can be bittersweet
Insurrection in the street
It never comes without a price
And never without sacrifice

Suicidal bombs in their cars
Wrap them up in stripes and stars
Johnny boy is coming home
For a soldier's burial

I know you'll be coming home soon
The war is over, it was on the evening news
Nobody's winning when it's life we have to lose
I know you'll be coming home soon, coming home soon

My Posting

2007-09-21T13:20:00.000+08:00

What is a friend?

2007-09-21T02:14:00.000+08:00

Yes, tell me what is a friend? http://www.dictionary.com tells me that a friend means that person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.

Can't help but when I reflected on what had happened. It means a great deal. Was having supper yesterday with them. Yeah, I understand it's not their fault, so yes, aunty, not ur fault. whahaha.... the crap about "boh sim" is just b/s that came out of my mouth. Pardon me. My mouth needed that exercise.

Yeah. Thought of it in many ways. Perhaps he has been wrong all the while. Perhaps that guy has been thinking friendship would still be possible. And that guy had so much hope that at least, the very least, friendship would persist. But it turned out the other way round. It wasn't what he expected at all.

Just close your eyes and imagine. My friend there got enlisted into NS. Prior to that, he broke up with a girl. She was still in his mind, all the while. But the other party thought he had changed heart so fast. A chain of events took place while my friend was prisoned and stranded on a pathetic island off the Singapore mainland. Guess what, he logged on to his online friend network website and realized that she has deleted him off the contact. How would he feel. Would you sympathise, empathise, pity or not feel anything at all? This wasn't just all. It isn't a full-stop yet. He too knew the friends of that girl, well they were all classmates after all. So those friends and him used to go out together to catch movies, laze around, eat, etc. This time, because of that girl, special arrangements had to be made. You know, those situations which you will commonly see in Mediacorp 8 dramas where it involves love relationships.

Nothing much to do before I go to my new unit, so I just blog. Waste time...

Signed off,
Francis

About Stress

2007-09-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

Yes, some may claim that I may be siao to talk about such issues. Listen, I'm neither a psychologist nor a doctor of any related specialisation. The thing is that this issue of "stress" is itching me up and affecting many people. And more so, it seems to be the "in-thing" and the "in-word" more commonly used.

To my beloved friends out there, before I continue my so called crapping about how to reduce stress and more bullshit, please please please i beg you to take this short and simple test on stress. It means no harm to take right? So hit it... http://www.stressbusting.co.uk/quiz/quiz.asp
Here's a picture of how the website will look like.

Since most of my friends and peers belong to the "young adults" category, after reading much of the reviews and advices from what I believe are reliable sources, I have decided to share them on the web just for you guys. Just remember, grades in school are not EVERYTHING.

TOP 10 TIPS FOR BUSTING STRESS (information below courtesy of http://www.stressbusting.co.uk/articles/coping_10tips.asp)

What are the secrets of dealing with stress - and of relieving it? Two experts on stress -Dr Roger Henderson, GP and medical columnist; and agony aunt Ingrid Miller - each suggest five stressbusting techniques to get you started...

First, Dr Roger Henderson with some top tips on beating stress.

1. KEEP A DIARY
Keep a list - for at least a fortnight - of events, times, places and people that seem to make you feel more stressed. You will probably be surprised to find that a pattern soon emerges; and this may be linked to

time pressure, personality clashes, inappropriate demands or simply trying to do too many things at once. Once you have identified your pressure points you can move on to the following solutions...

2. TALK
Talk through your diary with a good friend or your partner - even the act of discussing things often makes you feel better. Ask for impartial advice as to how to ease the problems that you have discovered, or choose the sort of stressful situations that you have identified in which to use the following relaxation techniques.

3. LEARN HOW TO RELAX
•Practise deep-breathing techniques such as slowly inhaling while counting to five; hold your breath for five seconds then breathe out slowly. Repeat this 10 times when feeling stressed, concentrating on nothing but your breathing.
•Stretch the muscles of your neck and shoulders by keeping your shoulders level and trying to touch each shoulder with your ear. Look right up at the ceiling, down at the floor and then rotate each shoulder in a wide circle. Repeat five times. Open and close your jaw widely after each time since stress often causes tenseness in the jaw area.
• Take time out. For five minutes every hour, try to 'shut down' and think of nothing but your perfect situation. This could be a dream holiday, ideal partner or simply thinking about doing nothing at all. You will be surprised at how effectively this can lower stress levels.

4. EXERCISE REGULARLY
You do not have to be a gym freak to get the stress-beating benefits of exercise. Even 20 minutes of brisk walking three times a week will help to reduce stress as well as promoting restful sleep.

5. PLAN BREAKS IN YOUR DAY
The aim here is to allow time for the unexpected (which, as we all know, will happen!). Get up 15 minutes earlier than you think you need to and prepare for the day without rushing. Even better, get things ready the night before. Try to have 20 minutes in the morning and afternoon that is exclusively 'your' time, in which you can do whatever you want, even if it is simply sitting doing nothing. Look forward to these times when things get busy and if you are unable to use them always remember to 'catch up' later on.

AND ONE THING NOT TO DO...
One approach, on the other hand, to avoid, is that of using smoking and alcohol as crutches to help you cope - in the long run they simply make stress worse. Drinking more to 'calm your nerves' is a slippery slope.

• Dr Henderson is a GP and medical columnist who is a regular contributor to The Sunday Times and other national papers and magazines. His book, 'Stress Beaters - 100 Proven Ways to Manage Stress' is published by Metro Books at £7.99.

...AND FIVE MORE SIMPLE STRESS RELIEVERS

Ingrid Miller offers five handy stressbusting techniques to use in everyday situations…

1. STRETCH
Sitting upright on a chair, and keeping your back straight, extend your arms out in front of you as far as possible. Hold for ten seconds. Repeat, with your arms behind you. Then hold on to the sides of your chair and push your body upwards. Feel your spine stretch. Hold for ten. Now stretch arms to the ceiling, to release tension in back and shoulders. Relax and shake your arms.

2. USE SCENT TO IMPROVE YOUR MOOD
Certain aromas are thought to activate the production of the brain's feel-good chemical serotonin [although one recent research study suggests that the benefits claimed for aromatherapy may derive from the power of suggestion. Ed.]. Drip a few drops of the following aromatherapy oils on a tissue to sniff when you feel stress levels rising: jasmine, neroli, lavender, chamomile, vetiver, clary sage.

3. DE-CLUTTER
Mess creates confusion and a sense of loss of power. If your desk/home/car is messy and disorganised, have a good clear out and tidy up. You'll instantly feel more in control.

4. CHANGE THE HABIT
Many stresses are habitual. If you start to feel anxious or stressed out, do something out of character. Stop what you're doing and do something else. Or take a minute to take stock and work out why you're feeling uptight.

5. THINK POSITIVE
Use 'affirmations' - positive strands of thought put into words. Repeating, 'I am a loving and much loved person', can work wonders. Say it and believe it. And it will become true.

• Ingrid Miller is the agony aunt of Essentials Magazine.

And to caution those who think being stressed is ok and a small issue, do take note of the following. (Information below courtesy of http://www.stress.org/topic-effects.htm)

Effects Of Stress

Stress is difficult for scientists to define because it is a highly subjective phenomenon that differs for each of us. Things that are distressful for some individuals can be pleasurable for others. We also respond to stress differently. Some people blush, some eat more while others grow pale or eat less. There are numerous physical as well as emotional responses as illustrated by the following list of some 50 common signs and symptoms of stress.

1. Frequent headaches, jaw clenching or pain		26. Insomnia, nightmares, disturbing dreams
2. Gritting, grinding teeth		27. Difficulty concentrating, racing thoughts
3. Stuttering or stammering		28. Trouble learning new information
4. Tremors, trembling of lips, hands		29. Forgetfulness, disorganization, confusion
5. Neck ache, back pain, muscle spasms		30. Difficulty in making decisions.
6. Light headedness, faintness, dizziness		31. Feeling overloaded or overwhelmed.
7. Ringing, buzzing or "popping sounds		32. Frequent crying spells or suicidal thoughts
8. Frequent blushing, sweating		33. Feelings of loneliness or worthlessness
9. Cold or sweaty hands, feet		34. Little interest in appearance, punctuality
10. Dry mouth, problems swallowing		35. Nervous habits, fidgeting, feet tapping
11. Frequent colds, infections, herpes sores		36. Increased frustration, irritability, edginess
12. Rashes, itching, hives, "goose bumps"		37. Overreaction to petty annoyances
13. Unexplained or frequent "allergy" attacks		38. Increased number of minor accidents
14. Heartburn, stomach pain, nausea		39. Obsessive or compulsive behavior
15. Excess belching, flatulence		40. Reduced work efficiency or productivity
16. Constipation, diarrhea		41. Lies or excuses to cover up poor work
17. Difficulty breathing, sighing		42. Rapid or mumbled speech
18. Sudden attacks of panic		43. Excessive defensiveness or suspiciousness
19. Chest pain, palpitations		44. Problems in communication, sharing
20. Frequent urination		45. Social withdrawal and isolation
21. Poor sexual desire or performance		46. Constant tiredness, weakness, fatigue
22. Excess anxiety, worry, guilt, nervousness		47. Frequent use of over-the-counter drugs
23. Increased anger, frustration, hostility		48. Weight gain or loss without diet
24. Depression, frequent or wild mood swings		49. Increased smoking, alcohol or drug use
25. Increased or decreased appetite		50. Excessive gambling or impulse buying

As demonstrated in the above list, stress can have wide ranging effects on emotions, mood and behavior. Equally important but often less appreciated are effects on various systems, organs and tissues all over the body, as illustrated by the following diagram.

There are numerous emotional and physical disorders that have been linked to stress including depression, anxiety, heart attacks, stroke, hypertension, immune system disturbances that increase susceptibility to infections, a host of viral linked disorders ranging from the common cold and herpes to AIDS and certain cancers, as well as autoimmune diseases like rheumatoid arthritis and multiple sclerosis. In addition stress can have direct effects on the skin (rashes, hives, atopic dermatitis, the gastrointestinal system (GERD, peptic ulcer, irritable bowel syndrome, ulcerative colitis) and can contribute to insomnia and degenerative neurological disorders like Parkinson's disease. In fact, it's hard to think of any disease in which stress cannot play an aggravating role or any part of the body that is not affected (see stress effects on the body stress diagram) or. This list will undoubtedly grow as the extensive ramifications of stress are increasingly being appreciated. Additional information is available at Current and Past Stress Scoops, Current and Past Newsletters and elsewhere on www.stress.org

And for Christians, just remember, whatever the health magazines and reviews may write. Yes, indeed, I rekon that they are truly useful. But there's still one God - our Father, who can give us rest and make a way for us even when we are heavy-laden. It's our individual decision as to whether we want to surrender EVERYTHING to Him and let Him rebuild the "tomorrows" for us. Only thru SURRENDERING and telling God that we are serious in allowing the Holy Spirit to take control of our lives and emotions, then by and by the issue of stress will be minimal. Moreover, our bodies are the holy temples of God, it's thereby even more important to take care of our mental health so as to bring glory to God's name to others in spite of whatever situations we are in, be it in school or at our workplaces.

Great Acting Justified in Local Film "Cages"

2007-09-20T06:49:00.000+08:00

Yes, indeed, I'm too free these days due to block leave given to me by the SAF. Yes yes, all the crap about "it is a privilege, not an entitlement". Ok whatever that happens...

So I was too energetic and I could not sleep, therefore, i glued myself to the computer and began looking at official websites of movies. Well, maybe some might think it's a weird thing to do but, like I say earlier on, I just want to pass time.

Chanced upon this film which I liked and watched twice. And I thought the main character of the film was just a normal human being - a healthy boy, perfectly fine. But when i clicked on the "behind the scenes" photo gallery of the film's official website, i was stunned, totally. Fwah! Maybe that boy (by the way his name is Dickson Tan), was probably posing for the still camera. No! Guess what, I clicked on a link to YouTube, which showed me a "making off cum trailer" of the film. That guy is seriously visually impaired boy.

All I can say is, kudos to the crew. For crew members to communicate with him, whoa, not an easy task definitely. I used to be crewing as a freelancer before my ah gong enlisted me into NS, and I know how painful it is most of the times to communicate.

Watch the making of, simply just click the "play" button. And really, watch the film if possible. O yes, the photos you see... they're just awesome. Can't wait to be back crewing?

Note: Photos courtesy of Cages Production Team

an awaited post...

2007-07-07T01:41:00.000+08:00

not anymore.

not anymore of this and that. totally no more. i can't help it but to really let go of all these. yes, i will miss them. but so? well, life goes on...

booked out @ approx 1200hrs, Friday 6th Jul 07. gonna book in @ 2015hrs, Sun 8th Jul 07.
someone tell me how? no dates? well, life goes on...

am realizing how surface things are. seriously... also, i am realizing that things may seem simple on the outside, but it's seriously complicated on the inside.

time goes slow back at Tekong Island, but it simply isn't when it comes to time during book out. well life goes on.

my photos taken just with her used to appear in quantity in her friendster and blog, it isn't now. seriously. why? i chanced upon her friendster page, can't help it but disappoint myself.

2007-01-20T05:06:00.000+08:00

Sometimes gifts can just move people's heart, make him or her smile or even make him or her feel loved.

perhaps that's why.

and so sometimes it's impossible to throw away anything - simply because he or she can't bear to.

what a conclusion.

of shock...

2007-01-13T06:14:00.000+08:00

yeah to you whoever it is, first and foremost, I just feel that whatever you have been doing is such a loser-attitude. whatever drawings about a dog, a dog with a cigarette, and a dog who is a bastard. whoever you are, whatever you do, i just feel that you're such a boy... you behave like one. you act like one. so childish. i cannot stand it. oh come on, my dear friend, how old are you? a primary school kid or what? i seriously wonder your maturity level.

o yes, Julie, i would like to say a very very big thank you to you. You've been such a great friend. And after that phone call from you, seriously, after hearing what you told me and what you know, i am seriously very disturbed by certain facts and at the same time, disappointed at such childish behaviour of him, or whoever, "you". right.... whoever you are.

and it came upon my head that i really can't believe that he, that guy, can behave weridly this way. Ranger, or rather lone ranger, i can't help but say that. and yeah... sometimes i wonder why i should be helping people out when in the end people do all those crap to me. politically unsafe or are they politically unsure. yeah, perhaps what she meant was totally right, so sweet of him to do that, yeah. i just can't help but agree because for a matter of fact, i can't do it. or maybe i am not a person fit enough to do it. and ya, i just came back from JJ's shoot and i cannot get to sleep after the chat with Julie, ya...this time seriously can't get to sleep. I met with someone in the school's management just some days ago, and i can confidently say that this guy did it. did what? guess... ya... he gave me away to this someone from the school's management. and you know what? i am sure it's you. hear me my friend (or foe from now), i think what you did is childish. and right... i am unsure if i should say this. well, i see couples all around. just remember, especially to all peeps out there, if you are attached, do not, i repeat, do not try to woo the attached because it really breaks people's heart. i just cannot ta-han.

i've been thinking of so many issues, since the 1st to the 2nd to the 3rd to the last... should i be the one giving up? should i be the one letting go? what if the other does not do anything about this situation (the guy who gave me away). how? i'm confused, depressed, disturbed, maybe want to punch him (but i guess not...why punch? let's not waste my time to such a loner)

and i pray that when Julie speaks to her, she will understand. really...hopefully.

the thing i guess is that i have to "Close One Eye"
should i or should i not?

Francis,
In a v v bad mood

of shock...

2007-01-13T05:18:00.000+08:00

2006-10-29T17:25:00.000+08:00

How to Build God’s Confidence in Our 12? October 17, 2006

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Here are William’s Personal Applications for Message 10: How to Build God’s Confidence in our 12?

In message 10, we want to explore how to build Confidence into our 12? Before we can even begin to talk about building confidence, we need to first recognize that the confidence we are discussing here is not a confidence that comes from ourselves, as in how capable we are… We are referring to a confidence that comes from the Lord who is living in our lives and deep within our spirits… We need to first recognize that it is about God’s grace at work in our lives that we are able to achieve great things for Him. That confidence comes from the Lord…

1. Know God’s Mercy and recognize that it is not by your own Merit

Hence the first thing to do in order to build confidence in our 12 is to help our 12 know God’s Mercy. I was deeply touched when I read Chapter 10 of Pastor Cesar’s book on the 52 teachings for the G-12 Meetings. I felt that our Great Grandfather shared one of the deepest insights about the grace of God that I have ever heard. The way he uses the story of Mephibosheth (the grandson of King Saul) totally open my spiritual understanding to see what Grace of God is all about. The story that he quoted is as follows:

Mephibosheth was a man who had a hard life. Although he was the grandson of King Saul, he was hurt deeply in his life and began to think that he was a mistake. Saul was the first king of Israel, but because of disobedience, he and his children all died on the same day. Mephibosheth was five years old when the maid heard the news of the deaths. In the midst of all the bitter excitement, she was running hysterically and tripped, causing the boy to fall down and severely damage both of his feet. This accident left the boy lame. This misfortune left a mark on that child’s life, which also left him feeling abandoned. His father, uncles, and grand father were all dead, while he was crippled. Anyone would think that such a life has no meaning. But the life of this child has become the voice of nourishment for many people.

When David had already become king of Israel, he wanted to be merciful to Saul’s house. They told him about the grandson of the former King Mephibosheth. He was also the son of Jonathan, David’s friend. The first thing King David said to him was, ” ‘Do not be afraid because I will surely show you mercy for the sake of your father Jonathan, whom I love. I will give back to you all of the land of your grandfather Saul, and you will always eat at my table.’ The boy humbled himself and asked, ‘Who is your servant that you look at a dead dog like me?’ “

This act is an illustration of God’s grace, in the same way it is poured out on each one of us. It offers us dignity when we feel worthless.

Grace is the unmerited favor of God bestowed upon each one of us. It is not a payment people receive for something they’ve earned. Grace gives people dignity, improves their lifestyle, ensures families, and opens the door to blessings in their lives… We must understand that the prosperity comes, not by the company in which we are, not by our work or the possibilities, but that it comes to our life when we believe. All of God’s riches are within your reach; all you need to do is extend your hands and say: “Lord, I believe that they are for me.”

2. Know that God is for you and realize that you need not Fear

One of the reasons of why one is lack of self confidence is due to the issue of low self-esteem. When we have a low self-esteem, we will feel inferior to others and we will lose the confidence to try even if we can. The enemy will try to plant thoughts of failures and thoughts of doubts in people’s minds like seeds. If we are not careful, we will allow such seeds to grow in our lives, especially when we have been beaten up by different adversities, or exposed to great trials…. Don’t let your past or your fears take you away from the love that God wants to show you. Fear is more than a feeling; it is the manifestation of a demonic spirit which God can set us free from as we receive the Word of God.

Romans 8:31 says, “What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?”

Romans 8:35, 37 says, “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? …. No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”

We need to realize that we need not fear because God will always support us and He will not let us face the battle alone… But in Christ and through Christ, we shall be conquerors and overcome whatever difficulties that we face. While we may not always get the results of what we hope to see, we must trust that God is in control and He will bless us with victory according to His eternal purposes… So be brave to try whatever God ask you to do and know that God will see through what He assigned you to do… Do not fear, but have faith to believe that God will lead us into triumphant victory!!!

3. Know that you are a Child of God and receive God’s Blessings
God’s blessings are real, and as a loving father he tells us, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him” (1 Corinthians 2:9)…… If we know the great riches that God has planned for us, as His children, we will be able to trust our future into His loving hands with no worries…. We need to trust in our Heavenly Father that He has our best interests in His heart and He wants us to flourish and be fruitful.

Sometimes, we struggle with the situations in our lives and become uncertain if God will really bless us? This is especially so when we experience difficulties despite everything that we are doing seemed to be according to God’s will… When we experience growth and see fruits in our lives, and then suddenly, we face much difficulties coming along our way… If we are not careful, we may misunderstand God’s intention totally when we face all the trials in our lives…

John 15:1,2 says, “I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.”

You see, Jesus is the Vine and God our Heavenly father is the Gardener. Our Father in Heaven is always busy cutting off those branches that bears no fruits and for those bearing fruits, he prunes. What does that means, when we sin against him and does not bear fruits, the Lord will discipline us and cut off all the unwanted “sins” in our lives. When we are growing well and bearing fruits in our lives for the Lord, He will still prune us by cutting off any parts that may hinder us to be even more fruitful. This is what the Father as the Vinedresser would do for all the branches that come from the true Vine, Jesus Christ.

So be confident and know that God your Father has great plans for you… Plans to prosper you and make you fruitful….

Conclusion
God is faithful to His word in each one of us. In His mercy, the Lord brings us to Him to heal our wounds, to give us back what the enemy has taken away, and to enjoy each one of His promises. Jeremiah 29:11 says “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Trust in the Lord and place your confidence in God.

Source of the above message: Message 10
(Taken from the book by Cesar Castellanos D, 52 Teachings for the G12 Meetings)
Teaching 9: Forming Confident Leaders
The words below are extracts from Pastor Cesar’s book itself…

Mephibosheth was a man who had a hard life. Although he was the grandson of King Saul, he was hurt deeply in his life and began to think that he was a mistake. Saul was the first king of Israel, but because of disobedience, he and his children all died on the same day. Mephibosheth was five years old when the maid heard the news of the deaths. In the midst of all the bitter
excitement, she was running hysterically and tripped, causing the boy to fall down and severely damage both of his feet. This accident left the boy lame. This misfortune left a mark on that child’s life, which also left him feeling abandoned. His father, uncles, and grand father were all dead, while he was crippled. Anyone would think that such a life has no meaning. But the life of this child has become the voice of nourishment for many people.

1. Knowing God’s Mercy
When David had already become king of Israel, he wanted to be merciful to Saul’s house. They told him about the grandson of the former King Mephibosheth. He was also the son of Jonathan, David’s friend. The first thing King David said to him was, ” ‘Do not be afraid because I will surely show you mercy for the sake of your father Jonathan, whom I love. I will give back to you all of the land of your grandfather Saul, and you will always eat at my table.’ The boy humbled himself and asked, ‘Who is your servant that you look at a dead dog like me?’ ” This act is an illustration of God’s grace, in the same way it is poured out on each one of us. It offers us dignity when we feel worthless.

2. Be free from the Spirit of Fear and Inferiority
The root of Saul’s problem originated from his low self-esteem. Although everyone around him praised him for his stature, and being the most handsome person in all of Israel, he felt like the most insignificant person in the world…. Fear is more than a feeling; it is the manifestation of a demonic spirit which God can set us free from as we receive the Word of God.

3. Receiving Grace & the Inheritance
Grace is the unmerited favor of God bestowed upon each one of us. It is not a payment people receive for something they’ve earned. Grace gives people dignity, improves their lifestyle, ensures families, and opens the door to blessings in their lives… We must understand that the prosperity comes, not by the company in which we are, not by our work or the possibilities, but that it comes to our life when we believe. All of God’s riches are within your reach; all you need to do is extend your hands and say: “Lord, I believe that they are for me.”

4. Enjoy your Blessing, do not accept failure and Believe you are a Child of God
God’s blessings are real, and as a loving father he tells us, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him” (1 Corinthians 2:9)…… The enemy plants thoughts in people’s minds like seeds. The best soil for such seeds (of accepting the idea that one is a failure) to grow in is the lives of people who have been beaten up by different adversities, or exposed to great trials…. Don’t let your past or your fears take you away from the love that God wants to show you.

Conclusion
God is faithful to His word in each one of us. In His mercy, the Lord brings us to Him to heal our wounds, to give us back what the enemy has taken away, and to enjoy each one of His promises.

Have a blessed week!
Ps William

2006-10-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

yeah...not being able to see and/or talk is just so much like a torture

Crackin' Knuckles and More

2006-10-29T17:21:00.000+08:00

Crackin' Knuckles and More

Posted by Nicholas DiNubile, M.D.

on Thu, Oct 26, 2006, 12:27 pm PDT

what to do?

2006-10-28T02:43:00.000+08:00

medicine is killing me...
medicine is making me so like ....FAKE!

and yeah...planning is killing me...

and like when i sometimes pluck my courage up...it always fail in that way?
i know things would NEVER happen...but why am i still so like damn concerned?

sometimes i thought it would be good never to be concerned....never to care...never to talk...never to do anything...
but it's like i just can't help it when it comes to this and that.

sometimes i wish i could leave this school...
sometimes i wish i could just get memory lost and forget everything except God...
but reality is....what are the chances of all these coming true.
what is the chance of having what i hope and desire for come true? answer is none...and never.

and when i asked. i think i was so like stupid to add in and throw in other questions because i got myself more shit? perhaps RX was right...

2006-10-26T03:26:00.000+08:00

http://www.fcbc.org.sg/christmas/

vISIt IT!

What i did today?

2006-10-21T05:12:00.000+08:00

O ya...i went for a wedding dinner! my cousin's wedding!
yeah. When will mine be? long time to come ar.
check out the cute little boy..

2006-10-19T14:43:00.000+08:00

standards, just like what i will always yell at cadets. "I WANT THE ******* STANDARD FROM YOU UNDERSTAND?!?!?!??!"

YEAH...i am telling myself this, yes this time to myself...I want STANDARD from MYSELF.

behavioural problems
speech and linguistic problems
attitude problems
arghhghghghg

2006-10-13T02:39:00.000+08:00

i really really love you.
i really really want to spend time with you.
but i'm so sorry that i can't.
i'm missing you so much, i hope you would but i know what's on your mind

God is Good, all the time, everytime

2006-10-12T03:24:00.000+08:00

xpect the unxpected.

Got so disappointed after being bombarded by lecturers during the format pitch for bad budgeting (that's why i can never be a businessman), was so bloody scared that i might just got the group into some deep shit. went to al-ameen, thinking so much on the way, about the pitch and something else. both equally stressful...both equally important to me, but why? don't ask me... i just allow my heart to take me into thinking, wherever i am, whatever it is. and so i was praying like mad deep in my heart that time.

so well, today, God provided me a way, something which is more than what i expected. Thank You and i praise You for all You've done.

was sitting down there just now. one look, it was so painful. so damn painful. i asked, even though i knew but it turned out bad. i called but it somehow ended fast. really fast. so fast. just can't help it. and i just don't understand a single thing. why?

so what are tears for? stressful person? suicidal person? depressed person? lost? or what? whatever you name it... yes... it is.

and so why people suddenly eat so much? just like what that normally special doctors would say. "these are symptons of ..... name it...." i am having that... yeah.... but so what? who knows? who cares? you or You?

2006-10-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

2006-10-11T00:14:00.000+08:00

u r there but then...

2006-10-09T01:22:00.000+08:00

i am lost...

no chance...don't even stand one...

till now they don't heal...i don't think they will ever be...

2006-10-08T03:06:00.000+08:00

bullshit

2006-10-06T16:46:00.000+08:00

more often than not, being frank is just bullshit.
more often than not, when something serious is being said - people often do not believe.
more often than not, when things go wrong - i have to fakefully admit that whatever i said was joke.
and more often than not, i am often caught in a dilemma and i am a bullshit.

thanks!

2006-10-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

sighs a million times and still it will never be enough

some racist joke

2006-10-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

wa biang....very funny la...
Note: Coarse language

2006-10-05T04:48:00.000+08:00

well did finish some stuff but can't get to sleep.
ya...

i hate it when i can't get to sleep.

You.

2006-10-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

sighs, there's a spirit of confusion around. i just don't understand why. ... tell me why?
perhaps i am over sensitive just like what my friend says.

what to do? sometimes i feel like a shit doing something.
i don't understand la.

A CONFUSED ME.

2006-10-05T00:50:00.000+08:00

eMPOWER mE

2006-10-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

Empower Me
Claire Cloninger, David T. Clydesdale

Key: C

Verse 1:
   C          F 
Nobody knows how weak I am,
 C 
better than You;
               F 
Nobody sees all of my needs,
C 
better than You.
     F               Em        Am 
And nobody has the power to change me,
     Dm7                  E 
from what I was born to be.
F                      C     Am 
Jesus be strong in my weakness,
Dm7     G 
empower me!


Chorus:
C  G    Am           Dm7 
Empower me, like a rushing river
G                 C 
flowing to the sea.
                 F 
Lord, send Your Holy Spirit
G                      A7 
flowing now through me.
           Dm7               G 
Till I'm living as Your child,
E                 Am 
victorious and free,
          Dm7               G 
send the power of Your love,
        C 
empower me.


Verse 2:
Nobody's eyes see through my soul,
better than Yours;
Nobody's love can make me whole,
no one but Yours.
And nobody has the power to lift me,
to reach for eternity.
Jesus break through all my defences,
empower me.

©1983, 1984 John T. Benson Publishing Company (Admin. by Brentwood-Benson Music Publishing, Inc., 741 Cool Springs Blvd., Franklin TN 37067)
All rights reserved. International copyright secured.
CCLI song #101874

waiting

2006-10-02T03:10:00.000+08:00

worried. doing something at the same time.

so what time is it now.

oh well.... life is hectic these days.
have been missing church services.
i am missing hall 10.
i am missing Him.
and i am missing You.

1 more month or so.... shooting starts.
how much $$$ i get from SFC, i don't know.

let's pray for the best and i'm am waiting because i am worried.

how i hope i can build a family like this

2006-10-01T07:09:00.000+08:00

Celebrating the Family

Do you feel like you are left out as a family member or you can’t along well with your family? As part of the Celebrate the Family Festival, Reverend Simon Yee talks about loving and honouring our families and why we live in a family.

Family is God’s idea.

God has it designed so that we are born and to be raised in a family. For many of us, the only time we leave the family is when we get married and start a new family of our own. But “leaving” the family doesn’t mean that you are no longer part of the original family you were born in. It simply means that now you have one of your own to treasure and grow with.

I believe that Jesus would understand and celebrate his family well. He could have possibly started His ministry much earlier. Imagine, would Jesus not make a bigger impact, achieving more grounds with 12 solid years instead of 3 years? These days we have millionaire footballers that are under 21 years of age! Perhaps knowing WHY is not half important as knowing WHERE Jesus was in those 30 years of his life? I am certain that Jesus was celebrating the family.

In John 19:25-27, one cannot help but marvel at Jesus final desire while suffering on the cross. In his mind, there was one thing he had to do when he saw his earthly mother standing near the Cross and his one final act of fidelity was to ensure that his mother would be taken care of before he goes back to his Heavenly Father! Family means so much to Jesus and if that is so, it should be the same for us.

But what is God’s desire for the Family? Here are a few pointers I would like to share with all of you,

1.	God desires that the family is a place to Learn about God.
	In Deuteronomy 6:6-7, the scripture sets a pattern that help us to relate the Word of God to our children by emphasising the importance of parents teaching the bible to their children, as commanded by God. The church cannot be used to escape from this responsibility. Instead, eternal truths are the most effective and best learned in a loving environment of a God-fearing home. Of course, it takes much effort but at the end of the day, it’s worth the while.

2.	God desires that the family is a place to Live and Grow.
	If our faith in Christ is real, it will usually prove itself at home and in our relationships with those who know us best. Children and parents have a responsibility to care for each other. Children should honour their parents even if they are demanding and unfair whereas parents should teach and not be afraid to correct or discipline their children should they display any negative attitude and behaviour. In Proverbs 12:1, the bible clearly states, “Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge. But he who hates correction is stupid”.

3.	God desires that the family is a place to Love and Govern.
	Apostle Paul warned about the last days when people will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, disobedient to their parents and etc rather than lovers of God. The family is a precious sanctum where love is to be shared and experienced by its members. God also designed the family where he admonishes in Ephesians 6:2-4, "Honour your father and mother" - which is the first commandment with a promise - "that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth." Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.

Hence, we can all celebrate the family by

• Thanking God for our family
• Taking time to be with family members

•Let us celebrate and have a delightful time with our family, shall we?

Reverend Simon Yee is a Network Pastor. He also oversees the respective ministry and departments, namely Filipino Ministry, FCBC’s Corporate Communications, Wedding Services and Hospitality.

Ok...long time no c

2006-10-01T06:52:00.000+08:00

ok it's really been some long time since i've updated my blog. it's a blog. want to know more about me or find out how i am, just give me a ring or sms lar... or even want to meet me. hahaha. singapore quite small. technology quite advanced.

so riggggghhhhtt, many things have passed for me for approx. 2 months. first, started working for Splash Zone, a kids show. and yes, where's my pay?! learnt to yell at children but not love them. learn to make fun of them instead of taking care of them. learnt to treat them like how i treat my cadets back in henderson. shiok. hahahaa. but because of all these bad stuff that i've done, i've spoilt a total of 2 mobile phones which were drowned in the waters.

ok, so now right, gonna talk on how ibp progresses for my team. actually rigghhht, things have been both fun and stressed la. just went for the 1st location recee with adam, louis, khien and st. whoa! just like what chandler said, it would be fun but then righhhtt it's damn tiring. imagine, left house at 6+am and returned home close to 12 midnight. madness!!! but then right, it's still the starting, haven't shoot yet. shoot righhhttt, is definitely gonna be more and more siong.

so, have been also stressed thinking about that some thing and that some issues. stressing me up seriously, especially during this so called holiday season. whatever la huh... sometimes things that i just do really stupid. dunno what to say. when i think of it, arh...i just do. but after i do it, wah lau, the hokkien phrase is "really have to tio meh", aka really deserved to be scolded. you say i too much free time, not really...but then...how do i put it...hmm...i just felt nice doing it lor. i just feel nice helping people lor. i just feel nice seeing people happy lor (hopefully la huh). certain things cannot be forced, i know... but to say to stop doing it is really a madness thing to do. saying is easy, but doing it is so difficult. chatting is such a nice pasttime, but then the aftermath of chatting is really so pain, well at least to me, i dun know if you feel the same. (well...probably not)

have not been to church for ages. and ya...really ages. i miss hall 10.

2006-08-30T00:34:00.000+08:00

what can i do?
what do i need to do?
how can things get better?

Great Recent Speech by the Israeli PM....

2006-08-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

Subject: Great Recent Speech by the Israeli PM....

"Ladies and gentlemen, leaders of the world. I, the Prime Minister

of Israel,am speaking to you from Jerusalem in the face of

the terrible pictures from Kfar Kana.Any human heart,

wherever it is, must be sickened and recoil at the sight of

such pictures.

"There are no words of comfort that can mitigate the enormity

of this tragedy.Still,I am looking you straight in the eye and

telling you that the State of Israel will continue its military
campaign in Lebanon.

"The Israel Defense Forces will continue to attack targets

from which missiles and Katyusha rockets are fired at
hospitals,old age homes and kindergartens in Israel.

I have instructed the security forces and the IDF to

continue to hunt for the Katyusha stockpiles and launch

sites from which these savages are bombarding the

State of Israel.

"We will not hesitate, we will not apologize and we will

not back off. If they continue to launch missiles into

Israel from Kfar Kana, we will continue to bomb Kfar Kana.

"Today, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. Here,there
and everywhere.The children of Kfar Kana could now be

Sleeping peacefully in their homes, unmolested, had the

agents of the devil not taken over their land and turned

the lives of our children into hell.

"Ladies and gentlemen, it's time you understood: the Jewish

state will no longer be trampled upon. We will no longer allow
anyone to exploit population centers in order to bomb our

citizens. No one will be able to hide anymore behind women

and children in order to kill our women and children.

his anarchy is over.You can condemn us, you can boycott us,

you can stop visiting us and, if necessary, we will stop

visiting you.

"A voice for six million citizens.Today I am serving as the

voice of six million bombarded Israeli citizens who serve

as the voice of six million murdered Jews who were

melted down to dust and ashes by savages in Europe.

In both cases, those responsible for these evil acts

were, and are, barbarians devoid of all humanity, who set
themselves one simple goal: to wipe the Jewish people

off the face of the earth, as Adolph Hitler said, or to

wipe the State of Israel off the map, as Mahmoud

Ahmedinjad proclaims.

"And you - just as you did not take those words
seriously then, you are ignoring them again now.

And that, ladies and gentlemen,leaders of the
world, will not happen again.

"Never again will we wait for bombs that came to hit the

gas chambers. Never again will we wait for salvation that

never arrives. Now we have our own air force.

The Jewish people are now capable of standing up

to those who seek their destruction – those people will

no longer be able to hide behind women and children.

They will no longer be able to evade their responsibility.

"Every place from which a Katyusha is fired into the
State of Israel will be a legitimate target for us to

attack.This must be stated clearly and publicly,

once and for all. You are welcome to judge us, to

ostracize us, to boycott us and to vilify us.

But to kill us? Absolutely not.

"Four months ago, I was elected by hundreds of thousands

of citizens to the office of Prime Minister of the government

of Israel, on the basis of my plan for unilaterally withdrawing

from 90 percent of the areas of Judea and Samaria, the

birth place and cradle of the Jewish people; to end most of

the occupation and to enable the Palestinian people to turn
over a new leaf and to calm things down until conditions

are ripe for attaining a permanent settlement between us.

"The Prime Minister who preceded me, Ariel Sharon, made
a full withdrawal from the Gaza Strip back to the

international border, and gave the Palestinians there a

chance to build a new reality for themselves.

"The Prime Minister who preceded him, Ehud Barak, ended
the lengthy Israeli presence in Lebanon and pulled the

IDF back to the international border, leaving the land

of the cedars to flourish, develop and establish its

democracy and its economy.

"What did the State of Israel get in exchange for all
of this? Did we win even one minute of quiet? Was our

hand, outstretched in peace, met with a handshake of

encouragement?

"Ehud Barak's peace initiative at Camp David let loose

on us a wave of suicide bombers who smashed and

blew to pieces over 1,000 citizens, men, women and

children. I don't remember you being so enraged then.

"Maybe that happened because we did not allow TV
close-ups of the dismembered body parts of the

Israeli youngsters at the Dolphinarium? Or of the

shattered lives of the people butchered while

celebrating the Passover seder at the Park Hotel

in Netanya? What can you do - that's the way we are.

We don't wave body parts at the camera.

We grieve quietly.

"We do not dance on the roofs at the sight of the
bodies of our enemy's children - we express genuine

sorrow and regret.That is the monstrous behavior

of our enemies. Now they have risen up against us.

"Tomorrow they will rise up against you. You are

already familiar with the murderous taste of this

terror. And you will taste more.

"And Ariel Sharon's withdrawal from Gaza.

What did it get us? A barrage of Kassem missiles

fired at peaceful settlements and the kidnapping of
soldiers.Then too, I don't recall you reacting with
such alarm.

"And for six years, the withdrawal from Lebanon has
drawn the vituperation and crimes of a dangerous,

extremist Iranian agent, who took over an entire

country in the name of religious fanaticism and is

trying to take Israel hostage on his way to

Jerusalem - and from there to Paris and London.

"An enormous terrorist infrastructure has been
established by Iran on our border, threatening

our citizens, growing stronger before our very
eyes, awaiting the moment when the land of the
Ayatollahs becomes a nuclear power in order to

bring us to our knees.

"And make no mistake - we won't go down alone.

You, the leaders of the free and enlightened world,

will go down along with us. So today, here and now,

I am putting an end to this parade of hypocrisy.

"I don't recall such a wave of reaction in the face
of the 100 citizens killed every single day in Iraq.

Sunnis kill Shiites who kill Sunnis, and all of them

kill Americans -and the world remains silent.

"And I am hard pressed to recall a similar reaction
when the Russians destroyed entire villages and

burnt down large cities in order to repress the

revolt in Chechnya. And when NATO bombed Kosovo

for almost three months and crushed the civilian

population - then you also kept silent.

"What is it about us, the Jews, the minority, the

persecuted,that arouses this cosmic sense of

justice in you? What do we have that all the

others don't?

"In a loud clear voice, looking you straight in the
eye, I stand before you openly and I will not

apologize. I will not capitulate. I will not whine.

This is a battle for our freedom. For our humanity.

For the right to lead normal lives within our

recognized, legitimate borders. It is also your battle.

"I pray and I believe that now you will understand
that. Because if you don't, you may regret it later,

when it's too late.

ISRAEL AND JERUSALEM FACTS

1. ISRAEL BECAME A STATE IN 1312 B.C., TWO MILLENNIA
BEFORE ISLAM.

2. ARAB REFUGEES FROM ISRAEL BEGAN CALLING

THEMSELVES "PALESTINIANS" IN 1967, TWO DECADES

AFTER (MODERN) ISRAELI STATEHOOD.

3. AFTER CONQUERING THE LAND IN 1272 B.C., JEWS
RULED IT FOR A THOUSAND YEARS AND MAINTAINED A

CONTINUOUS PRESENCE THERE FOR MORE THAN 3,200 YEARS.

4. THE ONLY ARAB RULE FOLLOWING CONQUEST IN 633 B.C.
LASTED JUST 22 YEARS.

5. FOR OVER 3,200 YEARS, JERUSALEM WAS THE JEWISH
CAPITAL. IT WAS NEVER THE CAPITAL OF ANY ARAB OR

MUSLIM ENTITY. EVEN UNDER JORDANIAN RULE,
(EAST) JERUSALEM WAS NOT MADE THE CAPITAL, AND NO
ARAB LEADER CAME TO VISIT IT.

6. JERUSALEM IS MENTIONED OVER 700 TIMES IN THE
BIBLE, BUT NOT ONCE IS IT MENTIONED IN THE QUR'AN.

7.KING DAVID FOUNDED JERUSALEM; MOHAMMED NEVER

SET FOOT IN IT.

8. JEWS PRAY FACING JERUSALEM; MUSLIMS FACE MECCA.
IF THEY ARE BETWEEN THE TWO CITIES, MUSLIMS PRAY FACING MECCA, WITH THEIR BACKS TO JERUSALEM.

9. IN 1948, ARAB LEADERS URGED THEIR PEOPLE TO
LEAVE, PROMISING TO CLEANSE THE LAND OF JEWISH

PRESENCE. 68% OF THEM FLED WITHOUT EVER
SETTING EYES ON AN ISRAELI SOLDIER.

10. ON THE OTHER HAND, VIRTUALLY THE ENTIRE

JEWISH POPULATION OF MUSLIM COUNTRIES HAD

TO FLEE AS THE RESULT OF VIOLENCE AND POGROMS.

11. SOME 630,000 ARABS LEFT ISRAEL IN 1948, WHILE
CLOSE TO A MILLION JEWS WERE FORCED TO LEAVE

THE MUSLIM COUNTRIES.

12. IN SPITE OF THE VAST TERRITORIES AT THEIR
DISPOSAL, ARAB REFUGEES WERE DELIBERATELY

PREVENTED FROM ASSIMILATING INTO THEIR HOST

COUNTRIES. OF 100 MILLION REFUGEES FOLLOWING

WORLD WAR 2, THEY ARE THE ONLY GROUP TO HAVE

NEVER INTEGRATED WITH THEIR CO-RELIGIONISTS.
MOST OF THE JEWISH REFUGEES FROM EUROPE AND

ARAB LANDS WERE SETTLED IN ISRAEL, A COUNTRY
NO LARGER THAN NEW JERSEY STATE.

13. THERE ARE 22 MUSLIM COUNTRIES, NOT COUNTING
PALESTINE WHILST THERE IS ONLY ONE JEWISH STATE.

ARABS STARTED ALL FIVE WARS AGAINST ISRAEL, AND

LOST EVERY ONE OF THEM.

14. FATAH AND HAMAS CONSTITUTIONS STILL CALL

FOR THE DESTRUCTION OF ISRAEL. ISRAEL CEDED MOST

OF THE WEST BANK AND ALL OF GAZA TO THE PALESTINIAN AUTHORITY, EVEN PROVIDED IT WITH ARMS.

15. DURING THE JORDANIAN OCCUPATION, JEWISH

HOLY SITES WERE VANDALIZED AND WERE OFF LIMITS

TO JEWS. UNDER ISRAELI RULE, ALL MUSLIM AND

CHRISTIAN HOLY SITES ARE ACCESSIBLE TO ALL FAITHS.

16. OUT OF 175 UNITED NATIONS SECURITY COUNCIL
RESOLUTIONS UP TO 1990, 97 WERE AGAINST ISRAEL;

OUT OF 690 GENERAL ASSEMBLY RESOLUTIONS, 429
WERE AGAINST ISRAEL.

18. THE U.N. WAS SILENT WHEN THE JORDANIANS DESTROYED

58 SYNAGOGUES IN THE OLD CITY OF JERUSALEM. IT REMAINED

SILENT WHILE JORDAN SYSTEMATICALLY DESECRATED THE ANCIENT JEWISH CEMETERY ON THE MOUNT OF OLIVES, AND IT REMAINED SILENT WHEN JORDAN ENFORCED APARTHEID LAWS PREVENTING

JEWS FROM ACCESSING THE TEMPLE MOUNT AND WESTERN WALL.

THESE ARE TRYING TIMES. WE MUST ASK OURSELVES

WHAT WE SHOULD BE DOING, AND WHAT WE WILL

TELL OUR GRANDCHILDREN ABOUT OUR ACTIONS

DURING THIS CRISIS, WHEN WE HAVE THE CHANCE

TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

START NOW! SEND THIS MESSAGE TO 20 FRIENDS, AND ASK
EACH OF THEM TO SEND IT TO 20 MORE. JEWISH OR NOT,

IT DOES NOT MATTER.

TRUTH AND PEACE ARE VALUES COMMON TO ALL OF US.

EVERYONE MUST KNOW!

2006-08-21T00:29:00.000+08:00

Shepherd by Paul Zaia

I will give my heart to You
Forever faithful God
Guide me to Your truth

I will go where You may lead
Your hands of grace will guide
They draw me to You side
I praise Your name forever
Join with the shouts of Heaven
Glorify

You are the King of Glory
You are the Lord Almighty
You are the Shepher of my heart
I will give You all my praise
I'll follow You always
The Shepherd of my heart.

if only i could be like the Almighty Him, serving some with the heart of a shepherd.

I AM SO DISAPPOINTED.

2006-08-20T00:39:00.000+08:00

today i wonder. how come i am not able to convince people. yes, now i finally believe that people often inform other people of certain things and i am kept in the dark and i am not aware of. why? can't you people just come straight to me and spell everything straight to my face and seek calrifications? why do you have to go through so many chains of commands? this isn't the SAF.

just ask me, why is that thing there? and i will say. the stuff might be there but i may not be doing it? it just happened to be there, safekeeping for a friend. so ya, i just know where certain relationships stand. what i cannot understand is why people cannot ask me questions straight direct to me but have to beat about the bush. tell me and i will explain, and whether you guys believe it or not it's all your decisions because i know i have done my best.

now that i think back when i received that phone call, no wonder i felt so funny. i really had no idea what was it about.

I AM SO DISAPPOINTED.

2006-08-18T01:07:00.000+08:00

2 Timothy 1:3-12 (New International Version)

New International Version (NIV)

Encouragement to Be Faithful

3I thank God, whom I serve, as my forefathers did, with a clear conscience, as night and day I constantly remember you in my prayers. 4Recalling your tears, I long to see you, so that I may be filled with joy. 5I have been reminded of your sincere faith, which first lived in your grandmother Lois and in your mother Eunice and, I am persuaded, now lives in you also. 6For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. 7For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.

8So do not be ashamed to testify about our Lord, or ashamed of me his prisoner. But join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God, 9who has saved us and called us to a holy life—not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time, 10but it has now been revealed through the appearing of our Savior, Christ Jesus, who has destroyed death and has brought life and immortality to light through the gospel. 11And of this gospel I was appointed a herald and an apostle and a teacher. 12That is why I am suffering as I am. Yet I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day.

the winds of the the dunes

2006-08-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

if i were to be covered by the sand dunes now,
how great would it be.

no strength to blog properly

2006-08-18T00:04:00.000+08:00

ya ya...
stupid FR lim ml.

tmr's call time @ 8am...song boh...

regrets regrets

i have regrets of doing certain things,
i can't help it but i still continue to think.
decisions were made,
but regrets were late.

still i will continue to sing You praise,
even till the moment i pause to thank.
i offer to help,
and i continue to tell.

Reputations tarnished,
Images brought down.
Friends are lost,
People are eventually gone.

Relationships got screwed,
Emotions were fooled.
To You i apologise,
For You i will tesitify.

Depressions come and depressions go,
They have come again and when they will go i do not know.
To You i pray that it will go away,
Even till the day when my soul will rise away.

Take care my friend(s),
You have to stand strong and allow no matters to destruct your plans.

Be strong and courageous...

TIME FOR EVERYTHING - FRANCIS

2006-08-14T01:25:00.000+08:00

Ecclesiastes 3 (New International Version)

New International Version (NIV)

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. 13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

15 Whatever is has already been,
and what will be has been before;
and God will call the past to account. ^[a]

16 And I saw something else under the sun:
In the place of judgment—wickedness was there,
in the place of justice—wickedness was there.

17 I thought in my heart,
"God will bring to judgment
both the righteous and the wicked,
for there will be a time for every activity,
a time for every deed."

18 I also thought, "As for men, God tests them so that they may see that they are like the animals. 19 Man's fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath ^[b] ; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless. 20 All go to the same place; all come from dust, and to dust all return. 21 Who knows if the spirit of man rises upward and if the spirit of the animal ^[c] goes down into the earth?"

22 So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?

SO, for me basically i need to do what i have to do... what i did was already done. i tried telling myself not to feel so despressed over it but it's very hard to get rid of it - i am still losing sleep over it. cannot get to sleep, ya, that's the reason why. i miss You and i miss you. all the best for all your upcoming thing which you will be involved in for approximately 2 months? all the best!

i broke my promise which i made myself, really so stupid. i feel so stupid after 11.15pm. i pray development do not start again, cause i am afraid of this thing call pain. i'm glad so many are falling in love.... one of my friend's brother's falling in love too... my blessings go out to him!!! God bless U my friend...!

Footprints in the Sand

2006-08-12T02:31:00.000+08:00

Footprints in the Sand

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed
he was walking along the beach with the LORD.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of
his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very
lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow
you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:

"My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

kaypoh

2006-08-12T02:26:00.000+08:00

1 Peter 4:12-19 (New International Version)

New International Version (NIV)

Suffering for Being a Christian

12Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. 13But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. 14If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you. 15If you suffer, it should not be as a murderer or thief or any other kind of criminal, or even as a meddler. 16However, if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name. 17For it is time for judgment to begin with the family of God; and if it begins with us, what will the outcome be for those who do not obey the gospel of God? 18And,
"If it is hard for the righteous to be saved,
what will become of the ungodly and the sinner?"^[a]

19So then, those who suffer according to God's will should commit themselves to their faithful Creator and continue to do good.

finally knew the true meaning of what it takes to be sort of a "kaypoh" dating from a few months back. really have been so kaypoh to help but shit happens. I am glad that this passage woke me up, but then, i guess i still fear being a kaypoh...

2006-08-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

it's been a week. can't get over it. it's worse than pain...but so? what can i do?
losing sleep, losing concentration, losing my emotional self...

Thanks Henghan & Dr V. so much for that help. no words can express my thanks.

I have no choice but to enter this in...i was given the Rhema word...

2006-08-11T06:28:00.000+08:00

Joshua 1:5-9 (New International Version)

New International Version (NIV)

5 No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.

6 "Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. 7 Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. 8 Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Christ, being Your son is such an amazing thing to be. To be baptized in Your Holy Spirit is even a great breakthrough. I now only realized how great it is to be Your baptized son. When You - God Almighty spoke to Joshua after Moses died and I read it, it came straight to me as if a new revelation.

So, yesterday, i was unable to meet the all time favourites FKK and HTHT. Yes, to all who wants to know, it's the DVD crap over and over again. And from the voicemails i've received from FKK, he repeatedly made claims that he wants to sue me for the slow processing of the DVDs because SSA wants to sue NP and NP wants to sue him so he claimed he would want to sue me. ok fine, take it that i had never taken Media Law module before. I think it's very likely to press charges against me without the signing of contracts. And the story goes on and on and on.

And this FKK goes to his confidant - HTHT. Apparently, both of them pull the other one in. And i think the reasons given were not valid. Suddenly the role of that someone changes. What a good move by FKKHTHT...

So both that someone and i are going to meet the all time favourites today at FMS office. Sure i will try my best.

New Paper is just a call's away. Whatever it is, i will try my best. I might have done something wrong in the process. But FKK's words used on me and some others were even more powerful. Glad i did not delete the voicemails. Shall clarify with Lai Sim as to whether the word "sue" first came from her. And ya, the idea of expulsion also rose... what great idea... I am just too tired of hearing all these.

For I know this is an obstacle for me to cross, I know...

i'm still up

2006-08-11T03:43:00.000+08:00

afraid cannot wake up. what the heck...got test ar...

but i was rather happy i should say. but like i wrote in the previous entry, happy for what...

my head is killing me... stupid fever...

Solution to my life's difficult questions

2006-08-10T20:32:00.000+08:00

saw this book when i browsed through Zondervan's website. read the description of the book and realized that perhaps i may need to really read this book with my heart. the times of shit which i am going through is really so damn difficult.

Written by: Rick Warren
List Price: $16.99 (USD) $21.99 (CAD) £9.99 (GBP)
Series: Living with Purpose
Format: Hardcover, Jacketed
Page Count: 208
Book & Bible Cover Size: Thinline
Weight: 1 lb
(453 gm)
ISBN: 0310273021
ISBN-13: 9780310273028
Available: October, 2006
Publisher: Zondervan
Synopsis:
Rick Warren takes you to the Bible for answers to twelve of life’s toughest questions. Drawing from the examples of different biblical characters who faced the same issues, Warren offers concise, practical insights you can understand and apply in order to move past hardships and experience a life of purpose and significance.
Description:
How can I …

cope with stress?

rebound from failure?

defeat depression?

have peace of mind?

Life’s difficult questions have answers.

Answers from the Bible that can change your outlook—and your life.

Rick Warren writes, “In each of these studies, you will discover simple ways to apply God’s truth to your personal life, your family, and your job. The way to get the most out of this book is to act on it.”

Rick Warren takes you inside the Scriptures to see what they reveal about twelve of the most pressing questions people ask. They are questions you yourself either have asked or most likely will ask. This book provides simple, straightforward answers you can begin to apply right away to move past your worst sticking points and enjoy a life of purpose, peace, and significance.

for those who wants to catch a glimpse of this book, click here for the pdf.

Boyzone - Words

2006-08-10T20:29:00.000+08:00

Words

Smile
An everlasting smile
A smile can bring you near to me
Don't ever let me find you wrong
Cause that would bring a tear to me

This world has lost it's glory
Lets start a brand new story
Now my love

You think that I don't even mean
A single word I say

It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

Talk
In everlasting words
And dedicate them all, to me
And I will give you all my life
I'm here if you should call to me

You think that I don't even mean
a single word I say

It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da da da da

This world has lost it's glory
Let's start a brand new story
Now, my love

You think that I don't even mean
a single word I say

It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away

so... suddenly i reminded myself of words which i've heard... they will still be the words which have already been spoken... sighs....

A Diminishing Francis

2006-08-10T20:19:00.000+08:00

woke up today and realized one thing - freaking fever!

damn it... supposed to meet the "all time favourite" henry tan and fkk. but what the heck, my health's more important. so i don't care so much.

exam's coming soon. checked on NPAL for my exam timetable...what the - 9 am schedule... die lar die lar...

there's adv audio post test tmr...sure fail..why? study only that 1%. test at 10am. song liao song liao... cannot wake up sure die - just like drama prod final test.

hope that my creative jucies will come back to me for doc pro. have to make the edit something good.

sms can always be a emotional catalyst (the good thing) and it can also be a emotional spoiler (the bad thing). guess today the smses i received were of the catalyst type. What logic is that? FLL - the Francis Lame Logic. but no matter that i still have to remind myself constantly that what's over is over. what's done's been done. so why the heck so happy? for what? but anyways, thanks yeah.

and so, no matter what... it's still this way...

Artist:	Boyzone
Album:	Where We Belong
Title:	No Matter What

Chorus:
No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We'll find our own way back

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know I'll love forever
I know, no matter what

If only tears were laughter
If only night was day
If only prayers were answered
Then we would hear God say

Repeat Chorus

And I will keep you safe and strong
And shelter from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born
No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need
No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know, I know
I know this love's forever
That's all that matters now
No Matter What

i miss this place - memories

2006-08-09T02:53:00.000+08:00

anyone wants to chill out with me at the board game shop? there's one at holland V!!! forget it...maybe no one is interested....well, i'm a loser who does BORING STUFF...LAME GAMES!

FRANCIS LIM - YOU'RE A LOSER!!! HAHAHA

so for those who are interested in the lame loser stuff which i just mentioned, go to http://sg.settlerscafe.com/

Enjoy!!!

first thing to SIM - kena sian....

2006-08-09T02:37:00.000+08:00

A SIAN DAY AGAIN.

could not go to indoor stadium for prayer revival meeting. why? got things to do.

what only...

went to school in the afternoon. shit, no point going there. made me sad upon reaching my first principal location.

went ameen, found out that i still remember a lot of old songs. old love songs are cool n emotional ya... please allow me to forget them.

i miss the darlings... ryan, clarice, jia jia, enqi and matthias... when can i ever see them again?

perhaps that subject really prefer the ones who have completed NS or are in midst of serving. i wonder how, i wonder why...

and oh, nowadays many people getting sick. really....get well soon.... especially YOU... you might not see this entry but perhaps unknowingly hope you receive this get well wishes. do take your meals on time.. don't play around with your stomach. not funny...

still taking time to let go of certain stuff... still find it difficult. it's not easy really. and i have come to realize that i only feel comfortable talking to certain people. and i continue wondering... why have i treated the subject(s) that manner and haiz...sighs... when will i receive the revelation?

Francis Lim was called home to be with the Lord leaving behind his beloved ones. (who will the names be?)

hair is long...must cut..very ugly.

looking forward to shoot tomorrow..

i want this bible!!!

2006-08-08T01:30:00.000+08:00

who says oldies are shit?

2006-08-08T00:48:00.000+08:00

here's another...

MLTR - Breaking My Heart

I'm on the floor
counting one minute more
Noone to break the silence

Staring into the night
all alone but that's alright
It's the feeling deep inside I don't like

Chorus:
There is no excuse my friend
for breaking my heart
breaking my heart again
This is where our journey ends
Your breaking my heart again

Here in my bed
counting the words you've said
They linger in the shadows

Coming home late at night
drunk again but that's alright
It's the look in your eyes I don't like

Chorus:
There is no excuse my friend
for breaking my heart
breaking my heart again...

hey anyways, for all those who are sick there, remember, health is more impt than anytg else ya... take ur medicine and don't overwork... God Bless...

lthe emotional winds

2006-08-08T00:23:00.000+08:00

today's a bad day. i dragged myself to go to school. i wonder how i am going to drag myself to school tomorrow... why is this happening?

i still can't get over it. i still can't get over the subject. i tried my best to but it's so damn tough. went to al-ameen, i dragged myself there. i dun know why, but i guess i won't frequent there as much as i used to anymore. not that the place is bad, but it's me. the fault lies in me.

i miss secondary school days so much. the times where i stress myself for the o levels. the times where i waste my time sitting around with my buddies at the clementi ave 2 hawker centre and talking trash. i miss those times. now that i am here in FSV, i just hate it when my buddies are in the army. so little topic to talk about. it's as if there's a generation gap. shit, i should have studied a levels man! FSV suck...

semester's ending soon, i have to remind myself. but there's one more left. the final lap and off i will leave FSV without a heck or do i care about this stupid course!

think this song speaks of how i feel

楓
Feng

Composer: Jay Chou (周杰倫) Lyricist: Devon (宋健彰)

烏雲在我們心裡擱下一塊陰影
wu yun zai wo men xin li ge xia yi kuai yin ying
我聆聽沉寂已久的心情
wo ling ting chen ji yi jiu de xin qing
清晰透明
qing xi tou ming
就像美麗的風景
jiu xiang mei li de feng jing
總在回憶裡才看的清
zong zai hui yi li cai kan de qing

被傷透的心能不能夠繼續愛我
bei shang tou de xin neng bu neng gou ji xu ai wo
我用力牽起沒溫度的雙手
wo yong li qian qi mei wen du de shuang shou
過往溫柔已經被時間上鎖
guo wang wen rou yi jing bei shi jian shang suo
只剩揮散不去的難過
zhi sheng hui san bu qu de nan guo

緩緩飄落的楓葉像思念
huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si nian
我點燃燭火溫暖歲末的秋天
wo dian ran zhu huo wen nuan sui mo de qiu tian
極光掠奪天邊
ji guang lüe duo tian bian
北風掠過想妳的容顏
bei feng lüe guo xiang ni de rong yan
我把愛燒成了落葉
wo ba ai shao cheng le luo ye
卻換不回熟悉的那張臉
que huan bu hui shu xi de na zhang lian

緩緩飄落的楓葉像思念
huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si nian
為何挽回要趕在冬天來之前
wei he wan hui yao gan zai dong tian lai zhi qian
愛妳穿越時間
ai ni chuan yue shi jian
兩行來自秋末的眼淚
liang hang lai zi qiu mo de yan lei
讓愛滲透了地面
rang ai shen tou le di mian
我要的只是妳在我身邊
wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo shen bian

在山腰間飄逸的紅雨
zai shan yao jian piao yi de hong yu
隨著北風凋零
sui zhe bei feng diao ling
我輕輕搖曳風鈴
wo qing qing yao ye feng ling
想
xiang
喚醒被遺棄的愛情
huan xing bei yi qi de ai qing
雪花已鋪滿了地
xue hua yi pu man le di
深怕窗外楓葉已結成冰
shen pa chuang wai feng ye yi jie cheng bing

JESUS IS LORD - MY LORD

2006-08-07T01:52:00.000+08:00

The series of messages are inspiring...
simple and nice postcard designs

definitions again

2006-08-07T01:44:00.000+08:00

sur·prise P Pronunciation Key (sr-prz)
tr.v. sur·prised, sur·pris·ing, sur·pris·es

To encounter suddenly or unexpectedly; take or catch unawares.
To attack or capture suddenly and without warning.
To cause to feel wonder, astonishment, or amazement, as at something unanticipated.
1. To cause (someone) to do or say something unintended.
2. To elicit or detect through surprise.

The act of surprising or the condition of being surprised.
Something, such as an unexpected encounter, event, or gift, that surprises.

negatively true....

verses of the day for me

2006-08-07T01:41:00.000+08:00

Genesis 12:2-3 (New International Version)

New International Version (NIV)

2 "I will make you into a great nation
and I will bless you;
I will make your name great,
and you will be a blessing.

3 I will bless those who bless you,
and whoever curses you I will curse;
and all peoples on earth
will be blessed through you."

today.

2006-08-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

woke up late today. took cab with sister to expo for service. no choice because i had to rush for Lord's supper duties. sister was in bad mood cause had something with father. well, tried my best to console her ar...

after service went for cell group. felt so bad for not remembering to bring my guitar for worship, but hey i know Dennis forgave me. Thanks Dad!

ok so things ended at expo hall 10... went to take MRT to go town. proceeded to Carls JR. met with Ismail and gang. so long never see JJ, niahkong, the dinner was cool....but then super full. can die...

went up for bowling. i am tyco n suck. well, but even though emotionally i was unstable, i can say hanging out just for that few hrs was worthwhile. Thanks dudes.

and so walked to bus stop to take bus. then stomach made complaints about the burger. bo bian, walked to esplanade to pang sai. the disabled toilet was shiok. clean and so home-like. then after that took bus with khien back home.

reached home, washed up, turned on laptop, then shocked! seriously, what did i do wrong this time dude? feel like shit now... gotta go to yahoo games release my frustrations! yeah!!! but again, i really feel so sorry and i really feel like shit.

what to do... the world is so unfair. If only i could be called home to be with the Lord - RIGHT NOW!

6-day wait

2006-08-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

now that i watched the personal Discovery Channel, i have realized that Israel actually had problems with Lebanon in a very different way.

28th July 2006 - Friday
Israel was on really good terms with Lebanon. Things were smooth sailing in a sense.

29th July 2006 - Saturday
Israel and Lebanon had talks. Meetings were held. Ministers visit each other. Both parties even exchanged much sms. Israel and Lebanon at that point were still on good terms.

30th July 2006 - Sunday
Israel sorted out its thinking and approached its good friend, US, and tols US that the relationship with Lebanon has out of gratitude, not admiration for political powers. Lebanon officials were kept in the dark, not knowing that talks were exchanged between Israel and US.

31st July 2006 - Monday
Both Israel and Lebanon were still acting normal towards each other. Lebanon still continued to maintain diplomatic and bilateral talks with Israel. But Lebanon started feeling weird as to why Israel reacted to Lebanon in such weird replies and manners.

1st August 2006 - Tuesday
Both countries reamained neutral.

2nd August 2006 - Wednesday
The Prime Minister of Lebanon went over to Holland for some bilateral exchange talks with the government there. Lebanon wanted to drop by Israel and have a chat over a cup of coffee with Israel's Prime Minister but was rejected. Lebanon's PM had no choice but to go back to his homeland. Lebanon's PM felt even stronger that something was amiss. But, Lebanon's PM still believed that Israel would still be the good friend of his country.

3rd August 2006 - Thursday
Lebanon's PM made a courtesy and concern call to Israeli PM. Lebanon's PM was kind of rejected because Israel's PM was too busy to entertain Lebanon's PM. Lebanon's PM felt like shit, thinking what on earth has he done wrong.

4th August 2006 - Friday
Both Israel and Lebanon clarified about the incident which happened the day before. Lebanon's PM felt like shit. So the PM of Lebanon specially arranged a flight to Israel to visit his friend, and so during the talk, he was bombarded by words which strained the bilateral relationship between both countries. Lebanon felt the worst. Lebanon was lost for words. Lebanon's PM left and returned to his country. That night, Lebanon's PM could not sleep.

5th August 2006 - Saturday
Lebanon's PM's personal assistant phoned Israel and clarified everything which happened over the past few days. Israel told Lebanon that it's because it was totally impossible for both countries to ensure the peace and stability at the border. And so, Lebanon's soldiers manning the border suffered much casualties and deaths from Israel Army's continuous fire. Lebanon's PM also found out that this dislike had already started 6 days ago, since 30th July 2006, when Israel talked to US about it.

so what's the moral of the story?
DON'T BE STUPID
Lebanon now feels so stupid, like shit, end of the world, suffers so much, rising death tolls all because Lebanon's PM himself was so stupid to have not realized this early. But i think the Lebanon's PM still loves Israel's PM just as much even till now. But i think Lebanon's PM is really so stupid that he had been kept in the dark for 6 days... sighs

DISCLAIMER
WHATEVER WRITTEN ABOVE IS PURELY FICTIONAL. I HAD NOTHING BETTER TO DO.

it became vapour

2006-08-05T21:27:00.000+08:00

around 3pm, exterior location. saw the sms, it vapourized.

hope

2006-08-05T06:19:00.000+08:00

Tossing & Turning no more.
Sleep is gone.
Cannot Sleep.
get back to this crappy laptop of mine to key in my continued thoughts...

no matter what, i still hope and pray that the block of ice will miraculously turn into a brick. i don't know how's that going to happen but i hope for the best. and i hope this will turn out to be a surprise.

hope too that for the later part of today, revival will take place.

gonna rest for a few hours. bound to have nice eye bags. a few hrs of sleep is definitely better than none. I pray that i will be charged for the shoots later on.

Hope to have a better day for me ahead.

Sorry...

This Game

2006-08-05T02:09:00.000+08:00

that to me was like a game. i seemed to be like the gamemaster. i started the game off badly. Eventually it turned out nice and sturdy. But now, the game's almost going to be over, or rather it has already been.

Time and again, i told myself not to give up on it as a gamemaster. but eventually now it's all gone - just like how all the blocks stacked up came tumbling down. The blocks covered me - entirely. I had no choice but to withdraw from the game.

I fail as a gamemaster. I really did. One of the reasons why i did is because i did not know the rules of the game well. The rules were simple but i chose to make them complicated. Why - can anyone tell me?

There's always this saying - "When you fall down, stand up on your feet again and continue walking". To me, in this situation, i fell but i guess my injuries are really damn bad. It'll definitely take a long time to continue walking normally again.

And tell me why dear Lord, why have i been hearing the "i'm not worthy"s and "don't waste your time"s all in a row? Did i really hear them or am i dreaming? If i heard them, then they must be so true and clear. If i was dreaming, then why the nightmares? And so, what does the word worthy means? One of the meanings as explained from the dictionary means - admirable. And if the subject is not of admiration to me, then why did i keep serving without complaints? I honestly admit that all were done without complaints but rather from the heart.

Strangely, to care simply means to be concerned to the degree of. And reciprocate means to feel in return. I did not expect any form of the latter when i cared. Though the statements of confessions were of highest value personally, i still stood by the subject by faith, and still not expecting anything else in return.

And by faith i believed so strongly things would be sorted out in time to come. I thought things would turn out good. But never did i expect that things would turn out this way. Still, the memories of 11pm at the exterior location on 4th august 2006 will be glued to my soul. Lord, i was lost, totally totally lost for words and any further explanations. I would say appetite's gone for as long as a month to come. It was like that big big bomb falling on Hiroshima. Even local drinks would not be able to wash away the stains of my soul. And when i thought a can of beer would be able to cleanse the stains, the bloody shop restricted the sale after 12 midnite. I know Lord, You saw my heart and the restriction was planned. I am so thankful to You but You know what? I don't know what do i do next. The answers were never there, never.

My Lord my Lord, where do i go from here? What do i do now? To let go is easier said than done. The pain of this game's failure meant so much to me. It meant so negatively significant. Would this ever be a turning point? I think it'll never be. & Right now, i confess i am a villian/ crook/ hyprocrite/ faker/ loser. i know my weaknesses. But i am willing to change for Your sake? I know You are merciful and you would give me that chance to do so. But i am unsure about the subject.

This game is just like a block of ice - so strong and sturdy. But as time passes, the ice eventually melts and turns to water, where it will gradually evaporate and turn to the vapour of the skies and principalities.

I know it's too late now but i know the short period of memories will still remain, deep into the core of my heart and soul.

Thank You.

Semester's ending real soon, but there's one more left.

Acting

2006-08-04T00:57:00.000+08:00

acting is tough, at least to me. I'm so sorry Royston that i have no continuity in my acting. hahaha...and i was very impromptu. shit...even acting as a pirated CD seller is not easy. however, i had a great time teasing the FSV all time hunk - Mathen...yeah... nice one mathen... STOP OR I WILL SHOOT!

2006-08-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

AND I KNOW I KNOW. I REALLY DO KNOW. I REALLY UNDERSTAND NOW.

FRANCIS LIM - YOU'RE FOOLED?! HAHAHA

Hillsong - The Time Has Come

2006-08-04T00:51:00.000+08:00

Found love beyond all reason
You gave Your life Your all for me
And called me Yours forever
Caught in the mercy fallout
I found hope found life
Found all I need
You're all I need

The time has come
To stand for all we believe in
So I for one am gonna
Give my praise to You

Today today it's all or nothing
All they way
The praise goes out to You
Yeah all the praise goes out to You
Today today I live for one thing
To give You praise
In everything I do
Yeah all the praise goes out to You

All we are is Yours
And all we're living for
Is all You are
Is all that You are Lord

short n simple

2006-08-04T00:29:00.000+08:00

fierce...
intentions noted finally.

tired

2006-08-03T13:16:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired.
so tired.
i'm so worn out.
so worn out.

poly is hell.
it really is.

when all else fails, i remember that "i've done my best"

2006-08-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

giving up is easy but to persevere on is not...
WHY? WHY? WHY?

we're all but human beings... agree?!

the thought of giving up drifts past slowly bit by bit...
but u know what? I'm not gonna surrender by giving up? nah...surrendering is just simply an excuse. I can't bear to give up...it's painful...it's hurting.

Francis Lim - just shut up and concentrate on your work. focus on your work...not others u idiot..
Francis replies "too difficult ar sir...cannot ar"
Nobody says "so? you gonna continue being like this?"
Francis adds "sometimes when certain things are concerned, it's difficult to give up."
Nobody ends off "then i have nothing to say"

2006-08-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

my Lord my Lord, provide me a way out.
teach me Your ways...
allow me to dwell in You than the world

Hendersonians

2006-08-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

shit man, i miss these dudes!

Zoo?

2006-08-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

Andrew Millians' cute boy on TV!

When God Ran, I ran even further away...

2006-08-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

Artist: Phillips, Craig & Dean
Title: When God Ran

VERSE(1):
Almighty God, the great I am
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome Lord
Victorious warrior, commanding King of Kings
Mighty conqueror, and the only time – the only time I ever saw Him run

CHORUS:
Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise when God ran

VERSE(2):
The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time – it was the only time I ever saw Him run

CHORUS:
And then He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise as He brought me to my knees
When God ran – I saw Him run to me

BRIDGE:
I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away
But now I know He’s been waiting for this day

CHORUS:
I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again

He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son”, He called me Son
He said, “Son do you know I still love you?”
He ran to me and then I ran to Him
When God ran

thoughts
I've been in a state of confusion. life has been hectic with piles of junk from schoolwork. not being able to sleep due to work and revision. not being able to sleep due to thinking of stuff. and ya... This song speak to me about going to run after the desires of the world or the desires of Him. Which should i choose? I suppose i would prefer both but then, it's always about decision making.

Felt weird though... even things seem so faraway. I've always been neglecting of so much things and being so insensitive to so much stuff. These days, i felt i've lost something from within myself.

the circle of confusion will never have an ending.

2006-08-01T16:59:00.000+08:00

confusion

2006-08-01T16:48:00.000+08:00

infantry.

to sign on or not?

to be spec/ officer/ man?

bad day

2006-08-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

I've been revealed a list of weaknesses.

Fat
Ugly Looking
Lots of pimples and holes on face
Smelly
Lazy & Lethargic
Foul Mouth
Inconsiderate
Not creative
Fierce
Insensitive to others
Stupid
Violent
Hard-hearted, NEVER having a soft spot on others
Over-critical
Unproductive
Irresponsible
....and the list goes on....

fever + sick

2006-07-30T21:57:00.000+08:00

fever: Abnormally high body temperature.
sick: Suffering from or affected with a physical illness. Pining; longing.

whatever it is. fever and sickness make my day in a negative way i should say. giddiness! what's wrong this time? what's wrong with me? i pray for speedy recovery, hopefully on monday i will be healed.

i believe in Jehovah Rapha - the Healer.

Agape,
Francis

i feel so like shit

2006-07-30T17:47:00.000+08:00

woke up in the morning @ 10 plus. got up made a call and hung up. touched my head and it felt like fever. shit! FEVER U KNOW...

oh my goodness. what on earth happened. o shit. tried walking around in my house, felt so giddy. i wonder why. it's so pain. head felt so happy. FINE!!! took panadols...with my lappy in front of me, i tried chatting with people but this time, my head felt heavier than a stone. eventually i went to sleep. when i woke up, it felt worse. shit...

when will i recover? going out soon...

Interesing fact to find out if one's in love

2006-07-30T13:17:00.000+08:00

“Are We in Love?”

With all these considerations, many are still left asking the big question, “Are we really in love?” As you try to answer that question, ask the following:

Do you love to talk to one another all the time—in all occasions? Do you enjoy virtually every minute that you spend together? Do you find that with each new date, you become more interested in the other person—in what he thinks, what she does, what he hopes and dreams, what she has to say?

Respect is one of the most important aspects of human relations, and it flows from many tangibles and intangibles. Do you deeply respect each other? This is not a simple, friendly respect, but a deep and growing mutual respect that leads directly to trust.

Once you make your decision, it is no longer a matter of finding a man or a woman who is pleasing to you, but instead trying now to see how you can best please this man or this woman you have come to deeply love—and have chosen to love. Are you prepared to make the continual enhancement of that love a lifelong goal?

Recall that the world is all about “falling in love at first sight.” But this does not happen! Most of humanity continually looks for a “quick fix” in life, not understanding that doing things God’s way almost always takes time! It takes time to grow in character, and anything of beauty and worth takes time and effort. Artists must realize this if they hope to create a masterpiece. Some of the greatest masterpieces take months, or even years, to produce.

Love is the same! It cannot happen overnight or in an instant. You may feel physical attraction immediately, but real, deep love is entirely different. Be careful and, quite literally, “take heed lest you fall” (I Cor. 10:12) in lust, not love. Do not allow your human nature to deceive you. Many have been blinded, to their own hurt. Will this be you?

Love develops only through careful and proper dating and courtship. A relationship between a man and a woman is a wonderful, God-ordained institution, if you allow it to grow and develop. This is applicable to everything of quality.

Real love is never blind. Too often, when a couple allow themselves to become infatuated, they ignore all differences and all weaknesses in each other. Grasp this next point—it is most vital. If you feel there is nothing wrong with your prospective mate, you are kidding yourself—and perhaps willingly deceiving yourself because you are too focused on the physical, what it will be like in bed together! Acknowledge and accept that there will be little idiosyncrasies in the other person. Be sure you are willing to live with both those you see and those you may not yet see.

Finally, on the matter of “Are we in love?”: Are your feelings and actions toward each other selfless? Does the relationship “line up” in all the critical ways discussed? Is God’s involvement evident in your relationship? Do you find that you simply “cannot get enough” of all that is the other person?

Anything less than brutal honesty with these questions brings a failing grade on the test!

Extracted from http://www.thercg.org/books/aadac.html

Good book indeed. I'm in total agreement.

THE BLAME AND SHAME GAME

2006-07-30T12:33:00.000+08:00

Background: Chronology of Recent Events

July 12, 2006: Hezbollah militants kidnap two Israeli soldiers patrolling along the northern Israel border. Three soldiers are killed and five more die in subsequent confrontations inside Lebanon. In a failed attempt to prevent the transportation of the kidnapped soldiers, Israeli forces attack installations and Hezbollah positions.

Hezbollah demands the release of thousands of Palestinian prisoners and one Lebanese prisoner.

Israel files a complaint, urging the UN to enforce council resolutions calling on the Lebanese government to disarm all militias within its borders and to extend its authority throughout its territory.

July 10: Mr. Meshaal says the captured Israeli soldier will not be freed without a prisoner swap, but pledges that his life will be protected.

Responding to international criticism, Mr. Olmert defends Israel’s offensive in Gaza, saying he has no set timetable for the operation.

Two Palestinians in south Gaza are killed by Israeli aircraft.

July 9: Since July 5, air strikes on Gaza raise the death toll to 41 Palestinians and one Israeli soldier. Defense Minister Amir Peretz acknowledges that “so far there has been no success” in the military operation.

Mr. Abbas sends two envoys to Hamas’s exiled political leader Khaled Meshaal and Syrian authorities to discuss the crisis.

July 8: Israeli forces advance toward Gaza City, killing four Palestinians. Other units pull back from northern Gaza to a security zone.

Palestinian premier Ismail Haniya calls for a mutual ceasefire.

July 7: In another air raid on northern Gaza, an armed Palestinian is killed. Another two are killed in the Beit Lahiya area.

Mr. Abbas says Israel is committing “new crimes against humanity.”

July 6: Israel enters deeper into the northern Gaza Strip, reoccupying areas evacuated 10 months ago; 22 Palestinian civilians and militants and one Israeli soldier are killed.

Two 16-year-old Palestinians are killed in an Israeli raid in the northern West Bank town of Jenin.

The UN Security Council debates a draft resolution demanding an immediate withdrawal of Israeli forces and the release of detained Palestinian officials. The United States describes the resolution as “unbalanced.”

July 5: Israeli warplanes strike the interior ministry in Gaza City for the second time.

Israel’s security cabinet orders the military to intensify air raids against Hamas and “targeted killings” of militants.

July 4: A nighttime air raid kills a Hamas activist in northern Gaza while troops advance into the area in a “limited” operation.

For the first time, Hamas militants fire a rocket into Ashkelon, a southern Israeli coastal town. There are no casualties.

July 3: Groups holding the Israeli soldier issue a 24-hour deadline. Israel rejects the ultimatum.

Israeli troops and armored divisions enter the northern Gaza Strip after a series of air raids; one Palestinian militant is killed.

Israel raids charity associations linked to Hamas in the West Bank, seizing paperwork and equipment.

July 2: Mr. Haniya condemns Israel’s air raid on the Palestinian government’s Gaza office, urging the international community to take action against Israel.

Prime Minister Olmert warns that his forces will use all their power to free Shalit.

A spokesman for Palestinian leader Mahmud Abbas says mediation efforts are nearing an impasse.

July 1: Israel rejects Palestinian demands to free 1,000 prisoners. The captured soldier is said to have been treated by a Palestinian doctor for three bullet wounds.

June 30: Targeting radical militants in Gaza City, an Israeli air strike sets the Interior Ministry ablaze. Three Palestinians are wounded.

Israel revokes the Jerusalem residency rights of a Hamas minister and three MPs.

Prime Minister Ismail Haniya vows that his Hamas-led government will not fall. Insisting that they are working to free the captured soldier, he accuses Israel of jeopardizing their efforts by attacking Gaza.

June 29: Israel detains dozens of Hamas officials, including a third of the Palestinian cabinet and several lawmakers.

The abducted settler is found shot dead in the West Bank.

As Israel suspends a ground offensive expected in northern Gaza, Egypt tries to mediate a solution, stating that Hamas agrees to secure the soldier’s release, but only under certain conditions.

June 28: Israeli troops enter the Gaza Strip to recover the captured soldier.

The Popular Resistance Committees threaten to kill the West Bank settler if the troops are not withdrawn. Meanwhile, Prime Minister Ehud Olmert says Israel will use “extreme measures” to rescue the prisoner.

Though urging caution, the U.S. says that Israel has the right to defend itself.

Israeli aircraft fly over Syria, home to several exiled Hamas leaders.

June 27: Hamas signs an agreement aimed at ending internal conflict; it also implicitly recognizes Israel’s existence.

Palestinian activists abduct a second Israeli youth from a Jewish settlement in the West Bank.

Israeli aircraft attack key points in the Gaza Strip, destroying bridges and knocking out the territory’s only power station, cutting off electricity to many of the 1.4 million residents.

June 26: Three militant Palestinian organizations—the Popular Resistance Committees, the Army of Islam and the armed wing of Hamas—claim to have captured a 19-year-old Israeli soldier, demanding that Israel free detained women and minors.

June 25: Palestinian militants attack an army post on the Israel-Gaza border, killing two soldiers and capturing a third. Israel starts to increase forces around Gaza.

Extracted from http://www.realtruth.org/news/rtalert-060713-war.html?gclid=CNLi6N7MuIYCFU9oDgodiwdtSg

My Comments,
so who's wrong in the first place? and who's the one who started the shit?

Your Love is Never Changing

2006-07-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

祢爱永不变

有情天 Key: G

Chinese Worship

祢

G
流出宝血

Bm7
洗净我污秽

Em7
将我的生命赎

F/D
回

祢	Cmaj7 为了我的罪

Bm7
牺牲永不

Em
悔

Am
显明祢极

A7
大恩

D7
惠

G
我深深体会

Bm7
祢爱的宝贵

Em
献上自己永追

Dm
随

或

C
伤心或气馁

或

Bm7
生离或死

Em
别

愿

Am7
刚强壮胆

A7
永远不后

D
退

D7
喔。。。

G
祢爱永不变

从	Bm7 今至到永远

Em
深深浇灌我心

Dm
田

或

C
天旋或地转

经

Bm7
沧海历桑

Em
田

都

Am
不能叫我

D7
与祢爱隔

G
绝

my uncle, your uncle, our uncle.

2006-07-28T03:16:00.000+08:00

the uncle in the centre is Warrant Kitto!
Waiting for Golden Handsake ar Inche!!!

please, be weary of how you put forth your words

2006-07-28T02:55:00.000+08:00

James 3 (New International Version)

Taming the Tongue

1Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly. 2We all stumble in many ways. If anyone is never at fault in what he says, he is a perfect man, able to keep his whole body in check.

3When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. 4Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. 5Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. 6The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

7All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, 8but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.

9With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in God's likeness. 10Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers, this should not be. 11Can both fresh water and salt^[a] water flow from the same spring? 12My brothers, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.

this truly is a reflection and lesson for me. but rather, when i read this passage again, i just think of this one person of whom i really have to share this passage with him/her. o ya, really, sometimes u have to be careful of how you put your words to others. it does not mean that if you are of certain superiority in a particular area (e.g. academics or maturity) compared to someone else, you can have to right to shoot down the other party verbally. Take it for instance, a PhD tells a diploma holder to do assignments but says it in ways which are not very pleasing, making the diploma holder feel so stupid and inferior. So please, whoever you are, please spare a thought for the other party. We are all but human beings, and for we have emotions, so please...yea.....

i'm saying all these because one of my friends got bored and felt inferior. my God, ugly people. It's better not to be individualistic at all times. Remember - others before self. I'm not saying i am a fine example to follow, I'm trying to learn too. Let's make the world a better place even though the world is changing everyday.

misunderstandings often occur

2006-07-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

"..... afraid you misunderstand...."
anyways, this is what kept appearing on my mind....

well, dear brothers and sisters, i am aware that there are many out there who are facing crisis be it in areas of schoolwork, work, office politics, family or even friends. but come on, all these problems are just so on the surface and superficial. what can beat the love and bonding in each and everyone of us.

2006-07-27T02:23:00.000+08:00

look at the cause of destruction!

Life is unfair. The world is changing everyday. Look at all your fingers and toes, they're all different in everyway.
Quote - 2WO Mathy

You are Glorious

2006-07-27T01:28:00.000+08:00

no matter what it may be...i still give thanks and praise unto Thee!!!

I love You with all my heart
Trust You with all I have
For You hold the heavens
And Earth in Your Hands
You died on the cross for me
Took all my sin and shame
For Your name is Holy
Exalted above all else

Glorious Redeemer
You have paid for my life
You have gone before me
Now I walk by Your side
I lift my hands to You Lord
For You are worthy of all praise
Jesus Reigns X2

What's love?

2006-07-26T01:02:00.000+08:00

1 Corinthians 13

Love

1If I speak in the tongues^[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,^[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

what a wonderful message that i suddenly recalled of. meaningful, sweet, lovely and glorious. You are the one for me. I guess the One and Only.

Prepared? Exciting?

2006-07-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

as human beings, we often look forward to something but sometimes when some matters are concerned, we tend not to be a shape or prepared for them. well well, things and issues like these often arise. i dunno, more often than not, we are surrounded by a pool of such events.

it's tough to be unprepared, as in when times if disasters strike, we will be in deep shit if we do not know how to handle the situations.

but then coming to think of it, there're times in lives where there'll be things we will feel excited about but then we dare not take up the challenge. y? it's just me/us. yeah...don't understand? it's ok... i'm typing all these crap just to exercise my finger muscles.

Agape!!!

God answers prayers

2006-07-25T18:37:00.000+08:00

well something happened today. the bad and the very unexpected. well, i thought that prayers really worked out during then. and ya, today's the time where He really anwsered my prayers. and ya, Lord i know you were there. Thank You so much for all these my dear Friend.

Thank You.

Israel hang in there!

2006-07-24T00:28:00.000+08:00

An Israeli soldier cries during the funeral for Shai Atias, an Israeli sailor killed after a naval vessel was attacked by Hizbollah off the coast of Lebanon on Friday, during his funeral at the military cemetery in Holon near Tel Aviv July 17, 2006. Israel bombarded Lebanon for a sixth day on Monday and dismissed as premature a proposal for an international stability force to help end the worst fighting across the Israeli-Lebanese border in more than 20 years. REUTERS/Gil Cohen Magen (ISRAEL)

17 Jul 2006 REUTERS/Gil Cohen Magen

ISRAEL, THE PROMISED LAND. HANG ON THERE AND YOU'LL BE DELIVERED.

I feel like SHIT

2006-07-24T00:01:00.000+08:00

"KIANG ZHU HOR, MAI KAY KIANG"
- a saying never to be forgotten
- a price to high to pay

I'm utterly sorry people.
Things wouldn't have turned out this way.

Lord protect the land

2006-07-22T04:59:00.000+08:00

Israel calls up army reservists

Israel has called up thousands of reserve troops and told civilians to quit southern Lebanon immediately, amid threats of a large-scale incursion.

Israeli troops are already fighting Hezbollah inside Lebanon and have been heavily shelling the border area.

Correspondents in Tyre say the sound of explosions is constant, and with villages cut off and roads severed, people are in grave peril.

Meanwhile, Hezbollah rockets have again hit the Israeli city of Haifa.

The crisis was triggered by the capture of two Israeli soldiers by Hezbollah militants on 12 July.

In other developments:

US Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice says she is travelling to the Middle East on Sunday to seek a lasting solution to the crisis - but not an immediate ceasefire that would return the region to the pre-conflict era

The Israeli Defence Forces... will bomb intensively any area from which rockets are being launched towards Israel. Whoever remains in that area puts his life in danger
Israeli Army leaflet

A UN-run observation post on the border was struck by a shell or mortar during fighting between Israel and Hezbollah militants, but no-one was hurt

French Defence Minister Michele Alliot-Marie said France would launch an evacuation mission to rescue about 400 French citizens trapped in southern Lebanon

The evacuation of other foreign nationals from Lebanon has continued, with thousands more expected to arrive in Cyprus on Friday

Leaflets on Lebanon

Correspondents in Jerusalem say it is understood the Israeli reservists being called up could fill in for troops in the West Bank and Gaza, releasing other soldiers to go up to the northern front.

The move has widened speculation that Israel is preparing for a large ground offensive.

Israeli Defence Minister Amir Peretz has warned that Israel is prepared to launch a full-scale ground operation if necessary, saying "we have no intention of conquering Lebanon but... we will do it without thinking twice".

The call-up came as Israel dropped leaflets on southern Lebanon warning residents to immediately evacuate an area approximately 32km (20 miles) wide.

Senior Lebanese officials said the country's army would go into battle if Israel invaded Lebanon.

The regional capital of south Lebanon, Sidon, says that about 28,000 internally displaced people have already crammed into the small sea port and that it is now becoming dangerously overcrowded.

One man told the BBC he had been forced from his home in Tyre because "Israel was bombing everywhere".

Sidon's mayor has warned that food, medicines, water and accommodation are running out.

Israel has continued its campaign of air strikes with war planes bombing more than 40 targets, mainly in southern parts of Beirut in the early hours of Friday.

Lebanese Prime Minister Fouad Siniora said the number of Lebanese killed in the 10 days of violence is now more than 330.

In northern Israel, two fresh waves of Hezbollah rockets hit the city of Haifa, causing at least 15 injuries.

Three were injured, though none seriously, when a rocket landed on a post office on Masarik square.

One witness who was just 30 metres from the building when it was attacked described the moment the missile struck.

"There was a very strong boom and people were panicking and running in different directions. People were crying and did not know what to do," Kiwan Ghalev told the BBC.

Thirty-four Israelis have been killed in the fighting, including 15 civilians killed by rockets fired by Hezbollah into Israel.

In an interview with Arabic TV network al-Jazeera, Hezbollah's leader Sheikh Hassan Nasrallah said his group would give up the Israeli soldiers only in a prisoner exchange.

Sheikh Nasrallah added that the Israeli attacks had not dented Hezbollah's capabilities.

Story from BBC NEWS:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/go/pr/fr/-/2/hi/middle_east/5202142.stm

Published: 2006/07/21 18:31:51 GMT

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sometimes i just feel people have nothing better to do. i just cannot understand why these people wants to attack Israel? what do they stand to gain? power? land? natural resources? what else? PLEASE - WORLD PEACE... by faith i believe Israel will not be defeated, for its ground are protected. Lord, may your protection fall upon the people of Israel!

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& i continue wondering...am i stupid or what...

2006-07-22T03:08:00.000+08:00

and yes, i continue to ponder time and again...

"AM I STUPID TO DO CERTAIN THINGS?"

and most likely the answer is yes... i don't understand why. the systems around me are all so screwed up, so pissing me off, the people (some) really blowing off my mind but why am i so devoted to helping? why? Am i being a simaritan in a right or wrong way? i am not sure too. Seeking an answer from Above.

Luke 10: 25-37 (King James Version) says
25And, behold, a certain lawyer stood up, and tempted him, saying, Master, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?

26He said unto him, What is written in the law? how readest thou?

27And he answering said, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind; and thy neighbour as thyself.

28And he said unto him, Thou hast answered right: this do, and thou shalt live.

29But he, willing to justify himself, said unto Jesus, And who is my neighbour?

30And Jesus answering said, A certain man went down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and fell among thieves, which stripped him of his raiment, and wounded him, and departed, leaving him half dead.

31And by chance there came down a certain priest that way: and when he saw him, he passed by on the other side.

32And likewise a Levite, when he was at the place, came and looked on him, and passed by on the other side.

33But a certain Samaritan, as he journeyed, came where he was: and when he saw him, he had compassion on him,

34And went to him, and bound up his wounds, pouring in oil and wine, and set him on his own beast, and brought him to an inn, and took care of him.

35And on the morrow when he departed, he took out two pence, and gave them to the host, and said unto him, Take care of him; and whatsoever thou spendest more, when I come again, I will repay thee.

36Which now of these three, thinkest thou, was neighbour unto him that fell among the thieves?

37And he said, He that shewed mercy on him. Then said Jesus unto him, Go, and do thou likewise.

And so, i tried to be one good simaritan, helping people as much as i can but i realized some people just do not appreciate. but why? "love my neighbour as myself" - i am trying to do that... and so i realized this why the Lord spoke unto me this " son, serve without favour(s) in return". at this time of the very wee hours of the morning, when i try my best to sleep so much but i can't, i was slapped right on my face with that statement where God gave me. I'm thankful, confessing that i did not like that answer but i think it made total sense! There's a problem with my attitude.

coming to the point of my attitude, i finally realized the problems within me. All praise to Thee! i think the thing where i need to work on is to speak with grace. I will try my best to change. well, it's my foul mouth... i will work on it.

Praise Be to God! Reelway Pictures clinched a deal with IPOS - Golden Village. at least can lighten our financial burden on ourselves (the reelwayers).

Matthew 6:19-24 (New International Version) says

19"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

22"The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are good, your whole body will be full of light. 23But if your eyes are bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness!

24"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.

Well well...
going for shoot in a few hours time... c what i mean? yeah... why am i doing this? smiles...

Draw Me Close

2006-07-22T01:07:00.000+08:00

Kutless - Draw Me Close
draw me close to you
never let me go
i lay it all down again
to hear you say that i'm
your friend
you are my desire
no one else will do
'cause nothing else
could take your place
to feel the warmth of
your embrace
help me find the way
bring me back to you

chorus

you're all i want, you're all i've ever needed
you're all i want
help me know you are near

My mind's running constantly at high speeds and there subconciously remembers this sweet song - Draw Me Close. i guess i've been far from this special Someone. how i long so much to be with You.